lovelylady2007
 lovelylady2007
Joined: May 21, 2007
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Posted: Post subject: Is It Too Late? What Am I Supposed To Do? |
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2 years ago. i turned to this butch after broke up with my ex. i never love her. for me i was only wanted to confide in someone bt she ended up loving me wholeheartedly. deep inside i know tht she loves, cares for me n would do anything to make me happy. we coupled only for a short while as i treated her badly. i went back to my ex.last year, when i broke up again with my ex n was unwell, she came to me n showed a great care. i wrote about her in my blog and posted some of her smses. now i'm having an affair with a married man. she didnt know a single thing about it. to my surprise, she read my blog and found out da entries i wrote about her. she was very upset. i was asked to delete the blog bt i refused to do so n she started calling me with bad names. thus,i deleted the blog n chased her away. 1 day she apologised, sent me a card with a ball pen engraved with my name as a last gift. she promised not to bug me anymore. i tried to call her after tht but to no avail.
About the blog that i wrote about her, yup i admit it was my fault. i talked about how regret i was for treated her badly and how nice she has been to me. but it seems that she was upset as i also wrote it there that 'it's weird when someone whom you dont love is that one that loves you so much'. she found out about my blog few months ago. she didnt know that i am having an affair with a married man coz i didnt mention it in my blog. she thought im dating a single guy. in the card, she wished me happiness ever after. i feel sad but honestly i never love and can never love her more than a friend. now, she has cut all the ties with me, she terminated her cell phone number, deleted her e-mail address. i've been trying to look for her but she's nowhere to find. my friends told me that she probably jealous to see my happiness with my bf now as i used to write a lot about my bf in my blog. what should i do?i feel bad...i admit she has been a good friend to me but now...she's walking away forever...can i have her back as my fren...or is it too late?
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